The Banshee March 30, 2007

For the past two days my normally sweet Chuky Monkey has turned into a scraming banshee.  Were talking a major crabby patty.  I’m guessing that it’s because he is cutting some new teeth but whenever he lets me look I don’t see anything.  I really don’t know how much more of the screaming I can take.  No matter what I try to do it’s not making him happy.  First he wants me to pick him up and then when I do he gets mad and wants down.  For real I wish at times like this I could read his mind or he could talk to me and tell me what’s really going on with him.  For all I know he could just be having a grouch couple of days and wants to take it out on us

Oh and lets not forget everything, and I mean everything that he’s getting into.  I could tell him 100 times and move him-but do you think that stops him.  No way!  If anything he thinks its funny when I get up to move him or he’ll throw over his shoulder whatever he has and takes off.  Don’t get me wrong there are many times I find this funny-not infront of him.  But some days there is only so much high pitched screaming and getting into stuff one can take.  The good thing about the past couple of days is that David has been home with me.  As for tomorrow well he has to work so wish me luck because I may need it.

The Dentist March 29, 2007

Ok I don’t know about anyone else but I absolutely hate the dentist, the sounds of everything and just the way it feels.  Man I get the chills just thinking about it.  Anyway the reason I’m bringing this up is because I had to go today for a cavity fill.  So not only do I hate going but as I was walking up the steps I tripped, I didn’t fall on my face but I did stumble.  As far as I know no one inside saw me and I don’t know if anyone did outside.  Was I embarrassed; yes.  Ok so the dentist wasn’t to bad but it wasn’t great either.  He said it’s a good thing that it didn’t hurt because it was pretty deep-oh thanks how comforting.  Oh well it’s all done and over with, but I do need to go back to have my teeth clean.

Before I go I have to tell you about the first time I had a cavity; I was 21.  That’s right I’m not lying I really was 21.  Well at the time it had been awhile since I went and wouldn’t you know I had 2 cavities.  Next thing I see is the dentist holding a shot and I said “um where exactly are you going to give me that shot?”  Needless to say he thought it funny and said “where else but in your mouth.”  Excuse me for not knowing but this is my first time to have to do this, oh and did I mention I was almost in tears.  And for the record it was horrible they had to give me another shot in the middle of my fillings because it hurt so bad and that second shot didn’t make it that much better.  So afterwards with drool hanging from my mouth I tell my mom about my ordeal and do you know what she did–she laughed at me and pretty much said the same thing the dentist said.  I’m so glad I was a source of amusement for them that day.

Stepy-Time March 28, 2007

If there is one person I can count on to make me laugh it would be my sister.  She is one of the most goofiest, silliest people I know.  Whenever I’m having a bad day or just need a good laugh I know that if I call her I’ll be laughing by the time I get off the phone.  I just wish we lived closer; we live about 1 1/2 hrs away and no that’s not far but it’s not like driving 20 min. to get there either. 

Everytime we are together it’s non-stop laughs with the both of us making a fool of ourselves.  But the best part is all the little inside jokes we have with each other.  For instance this morning her and I were talking about the Price is Right-yes that show is still on the air.  Anyways she told me to turn it on to see this girl who had a tattoo of Bob Barkers face on her arm-umm I don’t think so.  So she said if she was on that show and won a car she would do stepy-time.  Now I’m sure there are many of you who have no clue as to what stepy-time is, well if you’ve ever seen Mary Poppins there is a song that’s called “stepy-time”.  It’s the part where all the chimney sweepers are dancing on the roof-well one day we watching the movie and she started imitating them and doing the dance.  Well needless to say I laughed so hard I nearly peed in my pants.  It’s just the funniest thing I’ve seen her do, and she also makes this face when she does it that it just gets you rolling.  Well the idea of seeing her doing this dance on national television got me to laughing hard.  Ahh I just needed to take a breather.  I wish I had it on video so y’all you could watch it, but even if I did she wouldn’t let me post it so I have to accept her wishes.  Maybe one day I can talk her into letting me tape it, at least for my own amusement.

How much is that monkey in the window. March 27, 2007

I’m so glad David is on vacation this week because I had a ton of errands I had to do yesterday.  As you can guess I left the kiddos with him.  Hey I get a lot more done when I don’t have either one of them, and I enjoy the solitude.  All these errands took me quite awhile, mainly because I decided to do a little looking around for myself.  Let’s see I bought a new purse at Payless with a matching wallet (very cute-lt. mint green), three pairs of shoes for my Sweet Pea, oh and a new thinline Bible that I can carry in my purse at all times.  No these things were not my only errands, I had to go to the post office and Walmart. 

Anyways I pull into the driveway and who do I see looking out the window-my Chunky Monkey.  Yep he was standing there looking out almost as if he knew I would be pulling up.  Well he was looking at the car to see who it was and when he saw me get out he started freaking out.  I see him banging on the window and crying, can you believe that he was crying-oh how sweet.  I stood there looking at him and thinking as sad as it is to see him crying for me it was loving and sweet. 

By the time David and I got all the groceries and stuff out I went upstairs to get him and the poor thing was breathing all hard because all he wanted was for me to come up there and rescue him.  As soon as I picked him up he was giving me all kinds of salty, and slobbery kisses, and you better believe I loved every single one. 

Tulips March 26, 2007

First let me say that I love tulips; they are definetly my favorite flower.  I don’t know what it is about them I just find them beautiful and elegant.

 

This morning my mil asks me to go outside and look at what she found.  Well neither one of us could believe it, she found bright red tulips in her garden that she never planted.  I’m talking these flowers grew above the ground; bulb and everything.  Now I’m not much of a gardner-ok I don’t garden at all, but isn’t that just amazing!

The only thing we could figure was last year her mom had received tulips in a pot and after awhile she didn’t have time to take care of them so she gave them to my mil.  Well my mil figures she eventually forgot what was in them and just emptied the pot onto the garden.  As of now the tulips are in a pot on her porch stairs getting plenty of water today because all it’s done is rain.

My Call March 26, 2007

Like many I have been one of those people who have changed their major more than once.  Everytime I would choose one about a semester or year later I would realize that’s not what I want to do.  Sure I prayed that God would show me the right path but my heart wasn’t really in it, and I know that’s why it took a long time for me to hear his answer.  I have been in and out of college since I was 20, and I have yet to graduate. 

Well my status of not knowing and wandering in the desert finally came to pass in July 2006.  The few months before July I had this desire that I’ve never really had to go back to school and get my degree without dropping out in the process like I’ve done so many times before.  And I didn’t want to go to just any school I wanted to find a Christian school that I could do online so I wouldn’t have to worry about childcare.  My mil went to SAGU (Southwestern Assemblies of God University) for a seminar and brought back all kinds of information about the school.  After looking at all the brochures I was excited to learn that they have a distance education program all online-yesss!  A door had just been slightly opened; I filled out all the information and soon found out that in Aug. 2006 I would be attending-Hallelujah!  Now the only thing left I had to worry about was my major; a huge battle I’ve been dealing with for forever.

Ok back to camp; in July I went with the youth of our church to camp and I had an absolute blast.  I was so blessed to get to know all these young people so much better, and even more blessed when one night God placed in my heart my calling.  By the end of the week I knew that I was meant to go into ministry, and not just any but youth ministry.  Looking back at all the majors I had chosen I realized they all had one thing in common-helping teens.  I was so excited about my new calling that when I came home I didn’t tell anyone about it-can you believe that?!?  I was afraid that maybe I didn’t hear God right and I was having doubts that I could really do what he called me to do.  Oh how Satan loves to put fear and questioning in our hearts.  Well I wasn’t going to let him get the best of me so I went to prayer about it and asked God if this is your will then I will obey.  It was His will and I did obey.  I finally got the courage to tell David what I wanted to do and he just sat there with this surprised look.  But the best part was that he saw how excited I was to know my purpose (other than being a mom) in life.  He was excited for me and said he supported me in anything I felt lead to do-ahhh what a blessing.   As for the rest of my family at first they were surprised too but all have been very supportive of my decision.  However, there have been some who said that there isn’t a lot of money.  Don’t they realize that it’s not for the money, my reward is so much better.  Not only am I doing God’s will, but I’m helping in saving souls for Him.  What greater reward is there than knowing I helped God save from one from the fiery pits of hell. 

As of now I’m still in school and hope to graduate in about one year.  It’s been tough taking a full time load and taking care of my two little ones.  But God has given me the strength and organizing skills to balance my life between the two.  He also given me a husband who has been supportive from day one and for that I’m truly blessed.  So for anyone out there who thinks it’s to late or are not sure what to do just pray.  It’s never to late to go back to school, or to follow your dream, and it’s never to late to do what God has called you to do.  Sometimes we get so caught up in our lives that we forget to have our special time with Him.  So if that’s the stage you are in then take the time right now to talk to God and ask Him to open your ears, eyes, and heart, so you can know what it is God wants you to do.  We all have a bigger purpose in our lives then we can even imagine, it’s trusting God to make all things happen.  Good luck and let me know how everything is going.

Can I see the weather? March 24, 2007

 About a couple of months ago David decided to download the weather channel’s desktop so we could check the weather whenever we want.  At first I didn’t see the point but it comes in handy when there are things we are trying to plan.  Well lately my daughter has become obsessed with the weather.  I’m talking every night before she goes to bed and every morning when she wakes up she’s asking me to see the weather.  And to top it off she always thinks it’s going to rain, however, she still gets scared by loud thunder.  Ok now when she asks about the rain it’s more of like she wants it to rain, but of course with out all the loud sounds.  I’m sure this is some phase she’s going through, but it makes me laugh and wonder-hmmm could she be a meteorologist?  Probably not because she is a bit of a drama queen; but I’ll save those stories for another day.  Oh and as for the weather well it’s cloudy with a 20% chance of rain. 

How Hard Can it Be? March 22, 2007

 I remember after our daughter was born it took me a while to get adjusted to her routine-especially as a newborn and me a new mom.  Well after a couple of weeks I finally started to get the hang of motherhood but not so much with all the household duties.  Trying to juggle a newborn and household duties was a lot harder than I could have ever imagined.  And what can I say I wanted to spend all of my time with her and when she was napping you better believe I was too.  Ok well my hubby finally asked me what it is I do all day-ummm let me think…take care of our daughter.  Well needless to say he didn’t buy the whole bit about it being that much of a full-time job-ah men.  So after about three months I grudgingly went back to work, and Madison stayed with Nana-thank goodness for her.  By the time she was 8 months I received a promotion and was now a manager at Red Lobster.  So now with the long and crazy hours I was working it was hard for Nana to always watch her, and my hubby had to quit since he couldn’t continue working their with me as a manager.  Well after talking it over on what we would do he decided to stay home and take care of her for a little while-WHAT!  I’m sure you can imagine how surprise I was, but at the same time I was glad because now he could see what it’s like to be a sahd. 

Ok so how long do you think he stayed home…anyone…6 months; yep that’s right a whole 6 months.  By the end he was tired of playing mom, dad, and housekeeper, and really I didn’t blame him.  This may not be politically correct but I honestly don’t think men were made to stay home and take care of children.  God made men to be the providers, while he made us women nurtures.  *Side-note-I applauded him and any man who has ever been brave enough to be a sahd.*  With that being said I was desperately missing being home and wanted to quit my job badly, but I stayed on for about 1 year.  After that I told my hubby I just couldn’t do it anymore and plus I wanted another baby. 

I quit my job in Feb. 2005 and found out that I was pregnant a couple of months later; actually a couple of days after our daughters birthday.  It’s funny how things work out, isn’t it?  Ever since I’ve been a sahm and I wouldn’t change it for the world.  Sure there was slight rough patch where I had to get used to a newborn and a toddler but thankfully the second time around my hubby was very understanding and helped me out immensly.  After about a week I was ready to go solo, sure there are rough days but not rough enough for me to want to go back to work.  I mean they are just too cute for me not to stay home with them. 

Our Pits March 21, 2007

Tonight during worship service our Pastor asked us to ask God for that hunger, and desperation of knowing Him more.  So as I was standing there God just started to talk to me about feeling like you’re in a pit. 

No matter how deep or how dark your pit may be do not worry; for the LORD is our Savior.  He is the one who will never turn his back on us; He gives us strength when we have none to go on.  He is the light to guide us out; the hands that grab that pull us out and then shakes the dirt off of us, and then sets us back upon the right path.  Thank you oh LORD for never forsaking us, thank you for always being there even when we turn away and allow our selves to stumble and fall back into our pits.  Oh LORD, you alone are the only one who can dust us off and make us new.  You take us in your loving arms and show us your love, mercy, and forgiveness.  “You are my lamp, O LORD; the LORD turns my darkness into light.”-2 Samuel 22:29.  For those of us who feel that we may never climb out help us LORD.  Let us see your light, feel you grab us out of the darkness and into your glory and love.  In Jesus name…AMEN

Proverbs 23:18 March 20, 2007

For anyone who’s wondering how I chose this verse to be my domain then you’ve come to the right place.  When I was pregnant with my daughter Madison my DH and I had a lot of things going on and none were pleasant.  We were at financial roadblock and we didn’t know how we were going to get out of it.  Thank the Lord that I have such awesome in-laws; they took us in with open and loving arms.  So here I am about 5 months pregnant and worrying about how we would ever get back on our feet.  Then one morning I had this dream, it was God telling me to look up Proverbs 23:18.  I have to admit that at this time in my life I wasn’t reading my Bible everyday and I remember saying in my dream “I don’t even know if there are even that many chapters.”  Well God wasn’t going to give up on me because I was to lazy to get out of bed; he kept telling me the same verse over and over again untill I finally got up and looked it up in the Bible.  So here it is “There is surely a future hope for you, and your hope will not be cut off.”  Man I was totally blown away; I started crying because it was exactly what I needed to hear.  Never before had I heard or was trying to hear God literally speak to me, so this was amazing.  From that day on I have held on to that verse because I know no matter what happens in my life good or bad God has his hand on me and in the end everything will be ok.