Delightfully Chaotic

Can you see my hands?

“I stocked your freezer. You now have enough meat to feed every guy who answers your ad.”  

”Sometimes we love people so much that we have to be numb to it. Because if we actually felt how much we love them, it would kill us. That doesn’t make you a bad person. It just means your hearts too big.”-Riding In Cars With Boys

Catwoman to your response surprisingly no him falling out of the crib didn’t kill the mood, however, we had to wait and make sure he was asleep.  I guess that was his way of saying “hey wait a miniute I like being the baby!”

I’m not sure if I mentioned this before but when Sweet Pea went in for her 4yr. check up they tested her vision and well she wasn’t cooperating very well.  Anyway they told me unless she was going to pre-k to not to worry about it-well she’s not going but I still wanted to know if she could see well or not so I made an appointment.  And I’m sure you guessed that today was the appointment.  Now I’ll admit I was a little worried because they told me they would probably dialate her eyes and I knew it would sting but I couldn’t see how they would do the drops. 

Well we get there and she’s doing really well and cooperating with the nurse-thank goodness.  She’s able to see the pictures in the mirror and answer her questions.  Then comes the eye drops-they had her close her eyes and then after they put a drop in the corner they slightly open her eye so it will seep in.  The first eye no problem, the second eye was when she was complaining that it burned.  But she was a little trooper and thankfully the pain went away fairly quickly.  The nurse gives us the option to either stay in the room or in the waiting room and Sweet Pea wants to stay in the room.  Oh and can you believe there were no magazines!  And of course I forgot to bring a book for me and her so we were both pretty bored but made do.  Then Sweet Pea comes up to me and says while holding her hand up “Mommy I can’t see my hand!  Can you see my hand because I can’t see it all?”  I couldn’t help but laugh-I’m talking I was laughing so hard I had tears in my eyes.  I tell of course I can see her hand and the drops make your eyes see things kind of fuzzy.  But her face was priceless-her eyes were opened wide and trying to see them.  It was like she was tripping, and if you’re wondering how I know it’s because I wasn’t always a good girl and partied a lot.  Then she would walk up to the wall almost touching it with her nose and say “Oooo Mommy the wall looks huge.”  Just thinking about it is making me laugh, man do I wish y’all could have seen her face. 

Ok so the Dr. comes in and does a couple of tests and tells me that she’s a little farsighted but doesn’t need glasses.  He also to come back in a couple of years because her eyesight could improve.  Now I know I should of asked right then but how is that possible?  I really should of asked but she was sooo ready to leave and she had been really good.  Anyways I’m glad she doesn’t need glasses but I thought it would be fun to pick some out-I guess I just wanted an excuse to go shopping.  Speaking of glasses I really need to get my eyes checked again, it’s been a couple of years so I’m passed due.  *Mental Note-must make appt.*  Alright well talk to y’all later.



 “Sometimes we love people so much that we have to be numb to it. Because if we actually felt how much we love them, it would kill us. That doesn’t make you a bad person. It just means your hearts too big.”

“How could I forget about you? You’re the only person I know.”The Bourne Identity

Before I get started in my post I was wondering if any of y’all knew where I could find questions for moms to answer.  This was the last week for Mommy Talk and I’m really sad about it because I loved the questions and reading people’s answers.  So if anyone knows where I can find questions to post on here once a week and have y’all answer too that would be great.

The other night David and I put the kids to bed and decide to have a little bit of “alone time”.  He’s been working so much I feel like we haven’t really seen him this past week.  Anyway he we are trying to get all cozy and romantic when all of a sudden we this thump, and then a couple of seconds later we here Monkey crying.  So of course we go running in his room and there he is standing on the floor crying.  I pick him up and try to calm him down which eventually works.  Turns out he crawled out of his crib and probably wasn’t sure what to do next so he just lets go and goes tumbling on to the floor.  As far as I know he’s never tried it before and I can assure you that he hasn’t tried again.  Good thing because I didn’t really want to go and put a net over the crib.  I wish I could put part of the rail down but he’ll never stay in bed and I’m just not ready to go running in there every 5 seconds.  I remember Sweet Pea being between close to two when I converted her crib but I’m not sure about my little Monkey.  



Harry Potter And The Deathly Hallows

 “How could I forget about you? You’re the only person I know.”

“I’m not fat. It’s all this hair. It makes me look poofy.  Fine. You have fat hair, but when you’re ready to talk, I’m here.”-Ice Age

 Well I’ve finally finished the book last night and man was it freaking amazing!  I honestly really loved the book and it was very much worth the wait, and now I can’t wait for movie 6 and 7 to come out.  Here I thought everything had been answered until I started writing and I am left with one question that isn’t important but I’m curious.  I had read that Rowling would mention someone who would acquire magic late in life which was very rare.  Ok so who exactly was it?  And don’t think I haven’t serch the net either it seems that there are many people wondering the same thing.  I mean did I miss something or did she just decide not to put it in.  Again I don’t really think it’s a big deal but I was wondering.  

Ok back to the book-right from the beginning I knew it was going to be good and I was sad to read of Moody’s death right in the beginning, and of course all the others throughout the course of the book.  But seriously we all knew some were going to die just not exactly sure of who.  And I was sad about Snape; of course after knowing that he was loyal to the end to Dumbledore.  Which I’m glad.  I didn’t really think he was evil but she sure did have us thinking he was until the end.  I mean if he was then Dumbledore wasn’t as smart as we all thought he was.  But in the end he proves that he was always loyal and wasn’t it just sad how he asked Potter to look at him-I honestly didn’t pick up how much he really loved Lily until then.   Speaking of people who have redeemed themselves what about Percy Weasley.  I was sooo glad that he finally came to his senses because really from the beginning he’s been acting like a pompus jerk.

And the fighting scenes toward the end where awesome-I definetly can’t wait to see it in the movie.  I loved how they all came together and fought especially someone like Professor McGonagall.  Oooo who can forget Mrs. Weasley “NOT MY DAUGHTER, YOU BITCH!”-classic.  Perfect example of why you should never mess with a mother’s children-we’re crazy and we’ll come at you with everything we’ve got and then some.

I don’t think I said it earlier but I was really sad when Fred Weasley died, I really liked his character and what poor George.  And then Lupin and Tonks-the little baby left behind but very cool that Harry is the Godfather.  I’ve read that many people were disappointed about the epilogue but really what does everyone expect-it’s not meant to be another novel just a look at how they end up. 

Let me just say that I’ve really enjoyed the series and I don’t feel that I’ve been let down.  I am sad that now my favorite book is over and she says she won’t write about anymore.  I hope she changes her mind and decides to write about the kids or something.  What can I say I’m a dork and I can’t help but want more.  What about y’all?  Tell me what you thought about the book and what you hoped for.  I know you’re out there so please don’t leave me hanging give me some of your thoughts. 🙂



Where does it all go?

“I’m not fat. It’s all this hair. It makes me look poofy.  Fine. You have fat hair, but when you’re ready to talk, I’m here.”

“This movie has been brought to you by the letters W and B.”-Follow That Bird 

Well lately David and I have been trying to figure out where exactly our money goes.  One day we’ll look at it and we’ll have like $200 and then a couple of days later we’re down to like $50-and the crazy thing is we’re not sure where it al went.  Now before any of you say anything we do keep up with our checkbook but sometimes we both sit there and wonder how we spent it.  Am I making any sense here?  Anyways his dad gave us this book to read it’s Dave Ramsey: The Total Money Makeover

And I can’t believe it but David actually read the entire book and his been telling me how I need to read it so we can both be on the same page.  **Now here’s some background:  I’m usually the one who budgets and gets all freaked out about money and I’m trying to get him to learn how to save.  And now here he is wanting to budget and get things under control-Praise God!**  So I’ve started reading the book again and believe or not I have mapped out all of our monthly bills from now to Dec. and have even budgeted in food, gas, and yes even Christmas.  So as soon as he comes home today I’ll show him what I did and see what he thinks and if we need to tweek it a little.  So here’s my question how do y’all budget your income-do you use spreadsheets, the enveleope system (which we’re going to do for food and gas).  I’m just wondering what works for you.  Hope y’all have a fun weekend but as for us down here it looks like nothing but rain all weekend.


Starlight, Starbright…

“This movie has been brought to you by the letters W and B.” 

“So… you know how when you’re walking by a group of people, and you hear them laughing, you sometimes get that paranod, self- conscious feeling that maybe they’re laughing about you, when they’re really not? Well in your case, they really are. “-Waiting

Last night we’re coming home from church and Sweet Pea starts talking about moon following us and how pretty the stars are.  I ask her if she knows who made the moon and stars and she says “yeah God did.”  Then I ask her if she would like to go up into space one day so she could really see it up close.  She got real excited and said how she would love to do that.  Then she tells me that she needs to wish on a star.

Sweet Pea:  Starlight, starbright the first star I see tonight.  I wish that mommy and I will be together forever.

Me:  Ok my heart is just melting, so then I say “you know what Sweet Pea that wish will come true and do you know why.”

Sweet Pea:  No why?

Me:  Because I love you very much and I will always be your mommy so we’ll always be together forever.

Ahhh it’s moments like those I love and cherish, and part of me wants to keep them little forever but I know that I can’t.


Can we keep her?

 “So… you know how when you’re walking by a group of people, and you hear them laughing, you sometimes get that paranod, self- conscious feeling that maybe they’re laughing about you, when they’re really not? Well in your case, they really are. ”

“You’re like the drummer from REO Speedwagon. Nobody knows who you are.”-Employee of the Month

Yesterday the kids and I were outside playing when all of a sudden here comes this adorable puppy-ok she had to be at least 2.  Anyway she comes flopping up to us and rolled on her back to have her belly rubbed.  She was so sweet and had a collar but no tags.  Well I gave her some water and some cat food and she ate it and hung around for awhile.  Which reminds me I haven’t showed y’all the stray cat we decided to keep.  Anyways we went in for a minute and she sat out there and whined, we went back out and played for just a little while longer.  I would have loved to bring her in but she had some fleas and that’s the last thing we need in this house.  So then I tell Sweet Pea the story about how when Grumps was 17 he had a dog just like that but some mean people came and stole him.  Well here comes Grumps and there goes the kids and the dog running up to him.  Then Sweet Pea says “Look Grumps, we found your dog that someone stole!  Can we keep her?!?”  Since we live in the country we don’t have a fenced in yard which stinks because I really wanted to keep her.  And since last night I haven’t seen her and I keep looking, even this morning and I’m sad that she isn’t here.  Sweet Pea kept asking if we could keep her and I really wanted to say yes but I know she must belong to someone on this road.  Oh well maybe she’ll surprise us later today and if not I guess that’s ok too.


5 months to go.

“You’re like the drummer from REO Speedwagon. Nobody knows who you are.”

“With great power comes great responsibility.” This is my gift, my curse.”-Spiderman

In case you’re wondering it’s 5 months until Christmas-that’s right Christmas is just right around the corner.  I’m sure y’all think I’m crazy but I can’t help it I love the holidays and I especially love Christmas.  So for the past few days I’ve been working on a budget and I think I pretty much have it all figured out.  I’ve also been looking around on the web for some toys for the kids.  And during my search for toys I came across this one that I’m going to have to get for David.                   

Meet the Optimus Prime Helmet.  You put the helmet on and talk and it changes your voice to sound like a robot.  Now before you ask David is my husband and he’s 26, and sometimes he’s a big kid at heart.  The reason I want to get this for him is because ever since I came back from camp he’ll say stuff in his robotic voice like “Hello my name is Optimus Prime.”  Like I said he’s a big kid and that’s what I love about him.

Ok now back to the kids.  I haven’t had any problem finding stuff for the Monkey but for Sweet Pea it’s been a lot harder.  I looked around different sites and nothing really sticks out.  She has some baby dolls, a couple of Barbie’s, stuffed animals, Little People, oh you get the idea.  so for those of you with little girls around the age of 4 I could use some suggestions. 

Now onto me.  I can honestly say that I don’t know what I want for Christmas, ok well I do want a pair of converse sneakers.  The white ones that slip on, what can I say I had some growing up and I would love to have another pair.  Other than that I don’t really know what else to ask for, maybe some tops but I don’t know.  Again I know it’s early but what do some of y’all want.    





Sacrifices of being a sahm

 “With great power comes great responsibility.” This is my gift, my curse.”

“Fear of the name only increases fear of the thing itself.”-Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets


July 16: What sacrifices have you made as a SAHM or a Working Mom?

Ok before I get into today’s mommy talk I have to tell y’all about the little stunt my Monkey tried to pull.  Alright well I was cleaning up some stuff and I start to hear him cry and then Sweet Pea yells “Mom he’s crying and won’t stop.”  So I go over to see the problem because at first I thought she took his toy-nope that wasn’t the problem.  The problem was he climbed into the entertainment center where you put the stero, anyways he gets in there turns himself around and then freaks because he’s to scraed to turn around or to let himself fall out.  Well being the loving mom I am I took one look started laughing and got the camera.  And yes after I took the picture I got him out and gave him a big hug and kiss.  I haven’t seen him try to crawl up in there since.

Ok now back to Mommy Talk.  Never in a million years did I ever see myself as a sahm but that all changed the moment Sweet Pea came in to the world.  I was able to stay home for awhile, then went back to work and realized that I didn’t want to miss out of her life and plus I wanted another baby.  Deciding to be a sahm wasn’t the easiest decision because David and knew that financially it would be hard and it has been but it’s been worth it watching my kids grow.  Not only that but I don’t have a degreee (currently in shcool) and I knew whatever job I find would be enough to pay for daycare and with very, very little in the end.  So really with two kids it’s kind of pointless, oh and I was always in daycare and didn’t want that for my kids.  Now please here me I don’t think there is anything wrong with daycares and my mom had to because it was only her.  But for me and my family I really wanted to be the one to take care of them and see all their firsts .

Second sacrifice: being around other adults.  I love my kids but man do I miss having a real conversation with an adult.  I’ve tried playdates-don’t get me started, I’ll save that for another day.  I miss meeting new people and getting to interact with adults.  But I have made some good friends at church, and since blogging y’all have helped soooo much.  Oh and since Ashly stays home I talk to her all day too.  Seriously though being able to blog and talk to other moms has been such a blessing to me because even though I don’t see any of y’all face-to-face I’m still getting the adult interaction I need.

So what about y’all out there what are the sacrifices any of you have made by working or staying home.


Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix

“Fear of a name only increases fear of the thing itself.”

 “There is no good and evil, there is only power, and those too weak to seek it…”-Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone

Well I finally went and saw the movie last night and it was wicked cool!  I absolutely loved it and I was not disappointed.  And yes Harry Potter is an indulgence for me which is why it’s in that category.  I love, love, love Harry Potter.  Ok back to the movie, yes there were a couple of things missing from the book but lets be sensible here the movie would be like 4 hrs. long if they tried to put everything in it.  There is however a change on who told Umbridge about the D.A. in the book it wasn’t Cho-I think it was her friend.  But really all in all I loved the movie.  Oh and I thought the girl who played Luna Lovegood was perfect; she was just as spacey in the book as in the movie.

I just know when the next movie comes out-The Half Blood Prince it’s going to be just as good if not better.  Because really the next movie is just going to be awesome with everything that’s going on.  And no I won’t ruin anything for those of you who have not read the book even though I’m dying to tell y’all what I can’t wait to see happen.

But my real excitement is waiting for the last book, and you better believe I have it pre-ordered and I will probably not put it down because really the suspense is killing me.  And before anyone says anything yes I know I’m a dork when it comes to Harry Potter and that’s ok.  I have my own thoughts on the last book, like I don’t think Harry will die in the end, his Aunt Petunia will able to do magic, *STOP READING I’M ABOUT TO SPOIL THE END FOR OOTP*, and is Sirius Black really dead.  There are a few other ones but I’m not going to say anything else so as not to spoil it for the rest of you.       


Pregnancy Weight

 “There is no good and evil, there is only power, and those too weak to seek it… “

 ”You see, before he came down here, it never snowed. And afterwards, it did. If he weren’t up there now… I don’t think it would be snowing. Sometimes you can still catch me dancing in it.”-Edward Scissorhands

Since I wasn’t here on July 2 I thought I would go ahead and answer the question today.  And here it is; July 2: How hard was it for you to lose your pregnancy weight and keep it off?

For me losing the weight has been pretty difficult.  At first I couldn’t understand how I just couldn’t drop the weight in a snap.  I was 24 when I had Sweet Pea and I thought my metabolism was still fast enough to help shed the pounds-WRONG!  If anything it became as slow as molasses.  In my younger days I didn’t have a problem maintaining a healthy weight or even being able to loose a couple of pounds, and now I was still carrying all this fat.  Ok so with Sweet Pea I gained 30 lbs and only lost maybe 10 lbs.  So I went from being 130 lbs to now 160 lbs-and this was very hard for me to deal with.  I have a chubby face and this only made it worse.  But the realization of how I looked came after I saw some pictures of myself at her 1st birthday party-OMG!  I kind of started watching what I eat and I was working and I was able to shed some fat.

Now onto when I was prego with Chunky Monkey: I think I weighed around 150 lbs and gained 20 lbs so now I was a whopping 170 lbs.  As of now I weigh 165 lbs and I look bigger now then I did when he was first born; or at least I think I do.  Maybe my weight has redistributed itself.  What I do know is that I hate looking at myself naked in the mirror.  I just don’t find myself as attractive as I did before my kids, but I know how lucky I am to have a husband that not only thought I was sexy while pregnant but he thinks I’m sexy now even when I don’t.  I wish I could say that with this May Challenge I’ve really stepped it up a notch but I haven’t.  I work out only 1-2 times per week and don’t always watch what I eat.  I know how important it is for my health for me to loose the weight, and I want to teach my children the importance of staying healthy.  Now don’t think I want to be a size 5 or something but I would be happy with either a size 8 or 10.  I went from a 14/16 to now a size 12 and sometimes on a really good day I can fit into a 10.  I just need to be committed to change in my eating lifestyle and realize that I’m not 18 anymore and I can’t always eat what I want.